One Week.

One week from today, my entire college career will be over.

It’s SURREAL, believe me.  And entirely bittersweet.  It’s great to think about the future:  future jobs, my Master’s program,  my therapy career, having a family one day, etc.  I know that God has so much in store, and I am excited to encounter all of it.

HOWEVER, something is still in the back of my mind, and has been for this entire senior year, if not before that.  It’s a little question that is “what if?”  What if I don’t find a job?  What if I’m not good enough?  What if my GPA isn’t high enough?  What if I never get married?  What if I don’t like the place I work?  What if I don’t get into grad school?  What if my Master’s is too expensive?  What if I can’t find a good place to live?

These questions go on and on.  I am naturally an extremely anxious person, and when the topic of graduation is brought up, it only increases my anxiety.  I will miss this place every single day of my life.  I don’t know what I will be doing a week from now, a month from now, or a year from now.  But I do know that every single day, I will be thankful for Trevecca.  For the wonderful education I received, from intelligent professors that care about me not only as a student, but as an individual and as a believer.  I will miss the friends that I have made deep relationships with, and the love, care, and nurturing that I have received from them.  I know that these are friendships that will last a lifetime, regardless of where we are in life and what we are doing.  I am so so grateful for this place called Trevecca.  I may be scared to death about my future, but I know who holds it.  And I know I am a better Christian, student, and individual because of my years spent here on this Holy Hill.

One Comment

  1. Robin Holmes says:

    Precious.
    I know it’s scary. Walk every day with your focus on God and not the “what ifs” and He will sustain you. “I’ve never seen the righteous forsaken.”
    Covering you in prayer.
    Thank you for your blogs these past few years. I’ll miss them, and will miss keeping up with what’s going on in your life this way!

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