One week from today, my entire college career will be over.
It’s SURREAL, believe me. And entirely bittersweet. It’s great to think about the future: future jobs, my Master’s program, my therapy career, having a family one day, etc. I know that God has so much in store, and I am excited to encounter all of it.
HOWEVER, something is still in the back of my mind, and has been for this entire senior year, if not before that. It’s a little question that is “what if?” What if I don’t find a job? What if I’m not good enough? What if my GPA isn’t high enough? What if I never get married? What if I don’t like the place I work? What if I don’t get into grad school? What if my Master’s is too expensive? What if I can’t find a good place to live?
These questions go on and on. I am naturally an extremely anxious person, and when the topic of graduation is brought up, it only increases my anxiety. I will miss this place every single day of my life. I don’t know what I will be doing a week from now, a month from now, or a year from now. But I do know that every single day, I will be thankful for Trevecca. For the wonderful education I received, from intelligent professors that care about me not only as a student, but as an individual and as a believer. I will miss the friends that I have made deep relationships with, and the love, care, and nurturing that I have received from them. I know that these are friendships that will last a lifetime, regardless of where we are in life and what we are doing. I am so so grateful for this place called Trevecca. I may be scared to death about my future, but I know who holds it. And I know I am a better Christian, student, and individual because of my years spent here on this Holy Hill.